Yesterday is buried, I want to move on.
The grim melody plays again in my mind.
I laugh louder, but it’s hollow and strange;
No matter the amount, it cannot silence the ache.

Emptiness, the sensation of sinking, no longer breathing;
The cold cement opened wide to swallow me.

Dissociation, the heart traps itself in defenses learned long ago.
The mind blank as old habits knock at the door,
Whispering, “Let me in.”

I don’t want to go outside today; the chill cuts too deep.
Drowning, the waters rising quickly,
Dead ends and broken hearts,
The light has gone out; I am in the dark.

nothing matters
nothing matters
nothing matters anymore

It’s the constriction, restriction of the mind.
Unable to see further than doom and gloom.
I don’t want to think about You,
but it’s pointless.
My thoughts drift to You like waves drawn to crash on the coast.

In fide inventi sumus.
Christ, risen and reigning,
I cannot escape You.
No matter where I go, You always draw me close.

Your love illuminates,
destroying the shadows descending upon me.
Hope, pulling me out of the grave,
Breaking the lies that I am dead and dried.

Nothing matters, this is true, but really
Nothing matters when I am with You.